Something to Do

No one wants to have to find "something to do" in their idle moments. They're just convinced, after intense, lifelong training, that they have no choice. It's the only alternative to the imperative of the voice they mistake for their respective selves. Technically, like any addiction, distraction is a help in moderation. A relief. But, like any addiction, distraction doesn't have the same impact for long at a particular dosage. Before long, it's running your life, and you're nowhere to be found.

If you don't understand yourself at these crucial moments, you stand to miss out on choice opportunities to significantly speed up this process. It's a blessing to know there is an ally so simple to use as awareness; simply point and walk, eyes wide open. Follow the flow of events whenever you can, but as much as you can.

Take an interest in the things you do, even if you have to employ your imagination to do so. That's what it's for. As cynical as it sounds, "how would I look at this if I were someone who cared?" is much more productive than, "how can I make myself care?" (which leads so easily to toxic guilt and shame in the distracted. I've learned that) There's a place for every voice, but you can choose the ones who give the best advice. Practice putting your imagination to work building this voice of yours, because that's why you have both.

All Seeing I

Awareness is the all-seeing eye of the Present

Presence need not always stand still

While awareness can do nothing else

One can best escape the gaze of awareness in sleep, through the egoic manipulation, on an often semiconscious level, of the stuff of your fantasies. But even fantasies, in the minds of the aware, can be made to serve pure reality. You'll have your fantasies chosen for you if you aren't creative or interested. Or better said, you will unconsciously choose your fantasies if you are unconscious.

This isn't moral failing. The uncreative and uninterested simply have a parasitic relationship with their peers. It's a result of losing the spirit of youth and giving up on ever finding it again. But interested or not, most choose the fantasy for the purpose of expending energy to NOT have to rest aware, for even a moment. It's not their fault, but you can help them.

The reason we call the uninterested parasitic is because  the creative and the interested contribute to an energy trough from which all feed, including their reticent peers. But don't think this isn't a blessing for all. The opportunity to share is everywhere in this situation, and every gift further opens the channel.
A way under, over. A way through.